I think maybe I wanted to note that I feel like I made it through this time, but the thing is, I didn’t take the monotropic tunnel. I thought it would be a lot of letting go of the rope, but I had tied that in my mind to playing a game. And when I lost interest in games, I flailed for a bit, trying to figure out what else I could sink into to try and ignore the tension, the anxiety, because that was my best plan for it; ignore it until it goes away.